Over the course of the past few weeks, I have been overwhelmed at just how busy life can actually be, and I also saw just how difficult it can be to keep up with the things you once found joy and pleasure in doing.
Many people have told me that there’s nothing better for a young man like myself than to be busy and to find something to do in my free time. As much as I love the idea of spirit-crushing work overtaking the life that God gave me to glorify Him rather than indulging in my own self-interest (sarcasm of course), I believe that is a horrible way of going about life.
While some may believe that it is better to have a busy life, I think it’s far better and more honorable to God to have a productive life. All throughout the Bible, we saw godly men and women who didn’t concern themselves with frivolous activities, but with serious matters that would glorify God and be of use for building up the Kingdom.
You might be thinking about how this relates to me being inactive on my own blog for the longest time? Well… the truth is that I have definitely been busy, but I am not so sure that I have been productive. I have been doing work, going to the gym and getting involved in several projects on the side. I have developed good relationships, studied well for my college classes and have preached sermons here and there. But what did I give up in the process? Reading. Writing. Thinking. Imagining.
I was getting more for myself and I was being congratulated for being busy, but I have to admit that I sensed a passion for the things I love deteriorating from me. I lost a passion to write, an interest in philosophy, a desire to read on theology, an enthusiasm for creativity and imagination, etc. Up until this week, I didn’t know what was wrong and why my heart was aching. I even considered shutting down the blog, but then I came to realize that my life had definitely become too busy rather than being productive.
I hope God forgives me for that because I don’t believe that being busy for the sake of being busy is good at all. In fact, I’d say it’s closer to lethargy. A person could be busy playing a video game for hours, yet they did nothing for God’s Kingdom or His glory which would make their time spent completely pointless. I don’t want to live that kind of life; I want to be someone who God will use for His glory in unimaginable ways.
I am doing my best to get back on track with having a productive life, and one of the ways I am attempting to do that is by returning back to reading interesting works and writing analyses and critiques. I believe this is the medium through which I indeed glorified God in the past, and I intend to return to that former zeal and love for the things which made me productive.
May God help me in my walk with Him, in reminding me that it is not how busy I am that counts, but that I do everything to the praise and glory of the God who rescued me from my sins. My life is for Him, this blog is for Him and my talents and gifts are for Him.
Soli Deo Gloria.