To all my friends who follow The Reformed Alliance blog and read the posts which we take the time to write, I greatly appreciate every single one of you. To all those who take the time to read this blog to find a different perspective on theology, we hope you feel welcome to read our content. I have received emails from people who had incredible testimonies, as well as people who were experiencing heartbreaking events. I have seen likes, received personal texts, and read through some comments that were encouraging and mentally challenging. I enjoyed it all.
As for the team, other than myself, there is Jonathan Wooldridge, Ashton Clark, and Karina Soroka. My friends, Jonathan and Ashton, are remarkable writers and students of theology; I couldn’t ask for better people in my life who have become like brothers to me. Our editor, Karina, is my dearest friend that I could ever have, and she is a person who truly seeks after Christ. I am honored to have written and served for the gospel with them. God has truly blessed me with amazing, faithful people who I hold so dear to my heart.
However, over the past week and few days… I was considering quitting. For quite some time, I have felt pressure from my personal life. I wondered if it was worth continuing the fight. I kept my most inner thoughts to myself of course so that I wouldn’t worry anyone, not even my closest friends. I felt selfish for wanting to quit, but I was ready to give in to my pride and selfishness.
I began to wonder what was the point if I had people close to me who criticized (unjustifiably if I may add) the intentions and purposes of The Reformed Alliance. I was told the gospel was not present in any of my posts, that I didn’t encourage love, that I didn’t help anyone with what I said, and that there was no point to continue on. I had a great deal of stress, and I doubted my intelligence and ability to carry on.
It was only by the grace of God and the great move of the Holy Spirit within my heart, that I was convinced to stay. I whole-heartedly believe the Holy Spirit had led me through my study of Genesis over the past two weeks, but when I had gotten to Joseph… that is when I believe God shook me awake. I realized that God could use someone like Jospeh, even though he had pride in himself, and he had anger towards his brothers. Then, I read Genesis 50:24 (GNV) which said, “And Joseph said unto his brethren, ‘I am ready to die, and God will surely visit you, and bring you out of this land, unto the land which he sware unto Abraham, unto Isaac, and unto Jacob.”
It then occurred to me: Joseph didn’t commit his life to pleasing his family, pleasing his spouse, or pleasing himself. When he repented before his brothers and asked for forgiveness… Joseph’s purpose changed to glorifying God and to loving others. I then began to feel the need to be more like Joseph. I asked God to make me bold, being ready to die for His cause and to remind me that my life is for His glory and not my own. If my life is to please people, I will fail. Nothing in this world will completely satisfy. Not romance, not money, not education, and not even family. The only one who can cause me to be satisfied is Christ.
One of my favorite hymns is It is Well With My Soul (I look forward to doing a Hymns of Glory post on it next Monday), and in it says, “Though trials should come, let this blest assurance control; that Christ hath regarded my helpless estate, and hath shed His own blood for my soul.” My hope and peace is not in my own works, but Christ’s. I live to please Him, and therefore this blog should be to please Him.
The first question of the Westminster Shorter Catechism was this: what is the chief end of man? The answer: man’s chief end is to glorify God and to enjoy Him forever. This is exactly what this blog is intending to do. We intend to give glory to God alone, and we intend to proclaim the true Gospel. We preach the Gospel Christ preached, we preach the Gospel the Apostles preached, we preach the Gospel that Paul preached, we preach the Gospel the Reformers preached… and we teach the Gospel that God has graciously willed for me to receive.
I am grateful that we are not only Reformed in our theology, practice, and confessions… but most importantly that this blog is an Alliance. We are an Alliance against Satan’s attempts to distort the Gospel. We are an Alliance that intends to bring hope to the hopeless, healing to the sick, and love to the hurt. We do this not because we get a kick out of it, but because we want to glorify God and in that we find our satisfaction. We strive for righteousness for righteousness’ sake.
So, to all those who keep up with the blog, and for those who remember us: thank you so so much. To the critics of this blog: may you be blessed. To the team God has blessed me with: I love you dearly. To my brothers and sisters in Christ: I wish you all enjoyment in Christ.
I look forward to keep writing with the great purpose of speaking the truth, no matter the cost. I repent for any negligence, ignorance, or arrogance I may have rubbed off on people. I never intended for my blogs to be a place where I could speak my own opinion, but a place where people could be spiritually edified through the Word of God. I am only human, and I am grateful that by the grace of God, I am able to continue the good fight with my friends.
Soli Deo Gloria.